Monday, April 25, 2011

Can't pay attention

I just don't know what's wrong with me these days. I can't concentrate or focus on any one thing for more than a couple of minutes. I have so much work to do, both at my job and for myself and nothing gets done. When I am at work and should be working, I am randomly cruising the internet. Not focused on one thing, just bouncing from site to site, email to email. It would be different if I was getting something accomplished, like bills or whanot....but nope, just aimless wandering.

For a change I have enough money to pay all the bills and can pay about 99% of them online, but I don't even do that, half of them end up being late because I just don't feel like paying them.

This is honestly strange for me, I have always been able to focus extremely well and now even reading (my favorite activity) is hard for me to do. Is it some sort of adult add?  Am I not getting enough sleep? What? All I know is I am slowly going bonkers from not feeling like doing anything.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011


1) when someone sends you friend request upon friend request and you deny/ignore it. then they send you another one. this goes on for five or six rounds, until you finally give in and accept them as a friend.
******What the hell are you people thinking? Where is your self esteem, I said NO--I don't want to be your friend 5 freakin times. The only reason I finally excepted you is that you wore me down. Does this make you feel better about yourself?

2) you get a friend request and you accept it. the person never acknowledges you. So you post on their wall and they never respond, even though you can see the are "actively" on facebook.
******What the fuck? Why are you friend requesting me then? If you had no desire to speak with me then WHY did you send ME a friend request?

3) the people on facebook that 600 kajillion friends. on a personal account. not a business or blogging account.
******Who the hell do you think you are? Who has 494 people in their friends list and is seriously friends with them all? I don't even think I know 494 people. Are they all some random schmucks you hooked up with on farmville?

4) the people who play games. I am one of them. I'll play a game here and there. Sometimes I even forget and accidentally post one of those game thingys on my wall. Like when I have 8983641567 points on bejeweled.
*******You people who post every single time you have a strawberry grow, a cow shit, or a mob member get wacked are a pain in the ass of everyone trying to actually communicate with other INTELLIGENT life forms. If you beat my high score on bejeweled, please post and let me know, cuz that at least is an accomplishment, where as finding a possum mating with a duck on your pretend farm is NOT

I would defriend you people but why bother? If I do, #1 is so tenacious they will just send me more friend requests saying they aren't sure what happened but I'm accidentally not their friend anymore. #2 will re-request me because they didn't have enough fun ignoring me the first time. #3 can't remember that we were friends in the first place because they can't possibly know who all they were friends with and send a new request & #4 will send me a new friend request and trying to lure me to their possum farm so they can expand the alligator section

Some days

Some days I am just tired. 
Tired of everything.
Tired of not sleeping well
Tired of my husband being a slob
Tired of cleaning up
Tired of ignoring what I don't clean up
Tired of going to work at the crack of dawn
Tired of being nice
Tired of pretending I'm not sad
Tired of taking care of everyone 
Tired of running the errands
Tired of paying the bills
Tired of everything.
Some days I am just tired.